Gritty Revelations of Emotion

Brown eyes to brown eyes

Depth even in the first glance

should I ,

clicking to fast,

creating ties

without knowing it was taken, that chance

finance this lust, Bill the regret

lets make it hard for  our hearts to forget

Left reservation for your invitation

having pasted the days of not knowing

I have been growing, evolving beyond no

just to appear to be above the rest

when my soul, body and mind want so masterfully to formulate yes

I guess

it’s all those years

Living behind my fears

No faith in the unknown

then he appeared when nothing seemed worthy of my life

no desire inside arrived at baby; forever; wife

those old wounds, still throb

 scars of a child’s memories

told that the emotion from the womb is enate

for me a dream sold for less then obligation

the foundation of heart not made

I could not, would not…

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Hi Anya! Here is your Dai…

Hi Anya! Here is your Daily Tarot Card for Thursday, May 10

“The Death card suggests that my alter ego today is the Mover and Shaker, whose superpower for transformation relies on my bargaining ability to make a change. Even though tomorrow is another day, the time for change is now. Know that you can handle it and that you will not be alone in making it happen. Things may not seem to be going your way, but know it may be for the best. ‘When love goes wrong, nothing goes right.’ It may be time to find a new direction for the better of all, especially you. You’ve seen the writing on the wall and something’s got to give, but it’s not too late. You’re well-equipped to overcome your fears and step out of your comfort-zone. Make your best efforts to direct the outcome as you wish by acting proactively now, rather than having to react later when it’s out of your hands.”

 As the day starts I am not able to hold back a knowing smile as I recount my most current thoughts and actions… Out of fear I many times… I have stood completely still not allowing myself to move out of my own fear of failure.. today I choose to be the mover and the shaker that my daily tarot states. I wish to move forward without the weight of fear today. As the Sun begins it’s ascent from the water to the tops of mountains I ask that God grant me a sound mind for growth, a voice of decisive confidence and support that will keep me strong.

Daily Inspections of Soul… Day 1

ednesday, May 9, 2012

“The King of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in emotional availability. I inspire, protect and nurture with reliable compassion, respect, and affection. I am a master in the art and am secure enough in my role to connect to, express and pursue my heart’s desire while defending the greater good of those who rely on me. I am empowered by consistency and patience while trust is my gift or Holy Grail.”

 

        Each day I get these little pieces of the universe’s notes to being a full and productive member of my energy. Some days I am so moved by the insight to my most internal understandings of my world.  As a woman of spiritual and religious backgrounds it was not hard to see the connection of the much persecuted as well as celebrated area of astrology and the heavens we still know and understand little of.  I thought that of all the things that I post… this is one of those things that might allow me to truly be introspective of my self. A lot of days I will avoid my own scrutiny, being unkind to my faith and giving more attention to the old and unreliable ally that is fear. It angers my heart to see my mind muddy his trust, and love for me, a deeply rooted connection that would allow my work for this life to be a child born of that innocent first time type of love that will not only bang for my happiest moments but for the lessons that I have learned in my unpopular roads in this life. The days we are lost to our most powerful fears, we lose our resolve and our fight for the beautiful lifetime love for reckless and meaningless jaunts with fear. Some emotionally lengthy flings. I find the most influential in my life are the irresistible and violently passionate one night stands of my delusions and actions that leave me paralyzed in paranoia and self-doubt. Those two friends will come by often trying to get me out of my house of faith were comfort and peace lend matchmaking to success and complete happiness. Those friends are easier to lose to for we can chuck those up to a bad moment or day. You may not believe in the art of astrology, or its counterpart science but we must take all our lives to the thought of positive, to amend it’s acts of positivity. What is your daily mental map? Where r you going to allow your mind to travel/ Will it cause more sunlight to nourish your growth or negative.

Yesterday, I found that I was indeed emotionally charged and let my sadness cause me to avoid my daily tarot for a positive boost to aid in my smoothie of faith. Don’t make that mistake today.